pain

My minds say Its over,
but my heart says,hold on..
Now i'm so confused which lead i follow.
'im so tired,feeling so empty
i said i wanna give up but only my mind does, my heart keep on holding on..
What should i do?my heart is aching.. i can't bear the pain.
feeling of missing him,as if im dying.
all my friend says",stop thinking of him,let go and move on.life is beautiful.dont waste it..
Yes its true,but giving advice is easy than taking it..
its been a while,but still the memories still fresh on my mind..
how i will say ITS OVER if the love is stil there.

just asking

s your life the same as others?
or are you just jealous of what they have...
so... why are you minding someone else business...?
i can't stand other people gossiping on somebody's lovelife or lack thereof.
do you like to gossip on somebody?
even those people you just met?
or you just heard?
do you like to give bad opinion on other people? just because your friend is saying things against the other person?
isn't it best to just listen... observe and reserve your judgement?
after all... you are not perfect yourself... you could be judge too... without a trial...
HARSH HARSH HARSH LIFE.....IF YOU WANT IT...
BUT I DON'T WANT IT SO... I'M TRYING TO SMOOTHENS IT
GOOD LUCK.... TO LIFE.....

music

This song was in the 70's by Leo Sayer. Until now it still touch my heart every time i peruse you tube. The songs bring that place of magic and just touching and dreaming of someone you truly love... When I need you I just close my eyes and I'm with you And all that I so wanna give you It's only a heartbeat away When I need love I hold out my hands and I touch love I never knew there was so much love Keeping me warm night and day Miles and miles of empty space in between us The telephone can't take the place of your smile But you know I won't be travelin' forever It's cold out but hold out and do I like I do When I need you I just close my eyes and I'm with you And all that I so wanna give you babe It's only a heartbeat away It's not easy when the road is your driver Honey that's a heavy load that we bear But you know I won't be traveling a lifetime It's cold out but hold out and do like I do Oh, I need you When I need love I hold out my hands and I touch love I never knew there was so much love Keeping me warm night and day When I need you Just close my eyes And you're right here by my side Keeping me warm night and day I just hold out my hands I just hold out my hand And I'm with you darlin' Yes, I'm with you darlin' All I wanna give you It's only a heartbeat away Oh I need you darling

missing u

My heart aches within from missing you,
My lips long for the feel of kissing you,
Right now all I need is to gently touch your skin,
To look into your eyes and see deep within,
Just one warm embrace,
Just to look upon your face,
Just one little touch,
From the one I love so much,
If I could gaze upon your smile,
For just a little while,
To know that you miss me too,
As I'm thinking of you,
To hear the sound of you breathe,
Knowing you'll never leave,
To see you walk up to me,
Then embrace you tenderly,
To just be with the one who's sent my heart reeling,
And brought about this downpour of emotion and feeling,
I sit here alone in my office tonight,
And pray that somehow this all turns out right,
I've never been one to do more taking than giving,
I'm not well off but I work hard for a living,
I've told you many thoughts that weren't borrowed or bought,
And in lifetime, who would have thought,
That I have found someone who was just meant for me,
I can't explain the magic or why this should be,
But there is one thing that I know for certain,
That this just ain't over till one of us draws the final curtain,
For I've seen an angel and I want you to know,
If it's my choice to make, I'll never let you go,
Don't know what life holds, maybe there's no reason or rhyme,
To think you may be mine in a matter of time,
And though I cannot touch you and we are now apart,
My Love, you do dwell, so deep within my heart.

life

im so tired and feel so empty of my life,sometimes i dont know what to do..everything happened to me now are all mess..im so scared...

heartache

is said that"when you love someone,set him free,but if he comes back again,then you’ll it was meant to be."People say this is true.but i say,its not really true.maybe,its true to others but to me it’s not.I have a man in my life.I love him in the sense that he became the center of my life.All my hopes and dreams were with him.If i have exaggerate things he was the air that i breathed.Life became so meaningful with him.We have had our piece of misunderstanding,we fought,we discussed a lot,we broke up and we made up.Until we decided to let each other explore things in our own.We were still committed at that time,but since we were apart from each other,to do away pressure of demanding something from each other,we decided to let go."Ok we both make our own way..I go my way.If you find someone better than me,tell me so "so that i know what im gonna do.and to settled that way of us.I enjoyed my freedom flirted with other men,my work,internet, cellphone and Etc..I go out with friends enjoyed their company without worries of explaining to him afterwards.After sometimes,I never heard any news from him,and it turned into month and so on..He never said anything, Until i found out That He find someone..He never told me..I realised that since i haven’t Heard anthing from him.I was hopeful that HE still oved me and he will come back to me after his journey to his freedom..I never thought that he could be that weak with the temptation.I never thought that we will did this to me.I knew that he:s the man that kept his words,but he didn't told me So wat did? Nothing!!!! I was to proud to admit that it was painfull for me,I still loved him..Can u blame me?Can someone say I should have go to him and told him what i really felt..And then realized I was totally free.But It was so lonely life..Knowing that he,s not part of my life is really different..But what can i do.i have to move and forget him..I know it hard..Its frustrating…Its so unhappy..Missing him wasn’t really the hardest part of it,just i thought that were not meant to be..There are really things that we want to keep for our life..But we to have to accept that fact that we can’t have what’s not really for us..I really realized that people come to our live,we learned to loved them in the most special way.but when its time to go we have to let them and let each other grow apart..difficult,painfull,but in the time,lahat ng sugat gumagaling.it leave a scar,but it would only remain us that because of that scar,we learned our lesson well..It"s nice to be inlove especially,kung mahal k ng taong mahal mo..only one thing i learned in my experince,dont give all and keep little bit for your self.and also always love your self..Now i can say that im in the process of moving on.. but this experinces always remain in my heart..