I feel sad
I feel like I wanna cry...
I don't wanna hold these tears anymore...
I want a good hug right now...
I want someone to give me comfort...
So sad... I shouldn't feel this way.... I really shouldn't feel jealous and hurt like this...
he was never been my bf....
I'm such a fool for letting myself to fall for him...
I should not have met him that rainy night....
I shouldn't have let myself fall into his trap...
And let him enjoy himself!
I'm such a fool...
For him, I'm just like a wind...
A temporary thing.... I came into his life...
and then just like a wind, i'm gone... out of his life like before...
I can't be a part of his life... and never will be... just a pleasure...
This is goodbye to him now...
but what about me... how long can i keep these tears from falling...
how long can i hold this fragile heart from breaking again?
I feel like i just can't trust my heart to any man again...
but because of someone now,always there for me and helping me.
i know i will be okay and happy someday..
4/23/10
help me to heal the wounds!
Although I posted a few blogs here
trying to give some nice thoughts
and maybe few lines of advices.
I still dont know how to apply it on my own.
The only way I could share is through my pen
and notes!
And other way, I consider blogsville to be my companions
because I realize I've known quite people and friend also here.
This is a story of my previous relationship.
I meet a guy when i came back to Philippines
we become close until he we get along everyday
we had a few nice dates.
we become even more closer.
and a couple of nice company.
until the time i fall inlove with him.
we did lot of things together.
We have a few fights until reality comes to our way
that's our relationship is just a "fling"
i know i love him.but i dont know if he loves me..
He only said that im special for him.
days,month past quickly,
i realized that im already deeply in love with him
and i can't stop to feel it.
i wanted always with him everyday..
if i can't see him i always call and text him
I feel like my heart wont give up,
but my mind keep on saying go for it!
because i realized our relationship is just nothing to him.
just he's there for me to have fun and he need something else.
I gave everything to him
but he didn't appreciate it.
my friends suggested "i will stop our relationship or else
im the eone to suffer in the end.
but i didn't take their advice,instead i keep going.
i strive hard to keep the relationship okay..
im the one made the effort..
until i realized that i need to stop..
so i decided to go back abroad again.
but im still hoping that we still be okay.
Few months after since i came back
i thought everything is still okay.
but one day i heard from one of closed friends,
saw him with another girl..
when i heard it,my tears kept on falling down.
i sob,knowing that many people will see me crying.
i call him and asked,he denied to me instead he said
it just a business partner and she gave me a business.
well stupid to say i believe on him..
until one day,i open my facebook to checked if
i have messages from my friends or who,s online
then i saw in homepages the photo of him and the girl..
that time i don't know exactly what i feel.
i can't explained.,i'm angry,hate and i'm fell betrayed.
i knew also that they been long time already.
i said to my self.oh no,i'm such a stupid..
for how many month that i gave to him what he want,
hoping that we will be okay,but instead he fooled me
oh i'm so hurting,he really made me stupid.
and he just used me to gave what he want..
now he treated me as if he didn't know me.
he treat me so badly after all what that i been nice to him
i said i don't deserved this kind of treatment.
what i feel know is hatred,he gave me a deep wound.
that i don't know when it heals..
never mind, though i know my heart
is still longing for some few lines
of explanation after all! (from him)
i deleted the him in all my account,hoping in that way
i can move on easily.
I did try to make friends with the girl
in FB but she did not accept me (well for what??)
>>>>>>>my heart will answer!!
Now, I don't know what my feeling is,
after i find them getting okay as the girl said...
and the girl is in his place this time.
Do u think I am envy???
>>>>nope I am not!!
I just feel like a little pissed since she did not
even accept me as her friend
Which i want too, (maybe to cure, or accept the
reality that we are just really friend)
I don't know, I am all mixed up!!
sometimes reality is our weakness!
I thought I'm moving on!!
that's when I saw their photo!
its hard to pretend your smiling,
when after all the causes of smile
knowing that your are bleeding inside!!
When you are deeply in love, heartbreak can be traumatic. If you are going through a period of heartbreak, you must accept the fact that life goes on and so must you. Face those feelings of rejection and anger by acknowledging them, dealing with them, and then achieving closure. The most important thing is to get in touch with reality.
<<<<< its quite hard
when your heart and mind disagree.......
.....Follow your GUT FEELINGS!
....How many times have you been told by others to follow your heart when it comes to romantic relationships? How many times did you fail after so doing? How many times did you use your head (mind) after a BAD FALL?...and felt that you missed the chances to be happy again? Are you tired of this "tug of war" in your system? I tell you what, and it usually works..
....Follow your GUT FEELINGS!
...But please make sure, it's not just the "hunger pangs"...or else, you'll be in trouble...
learn to be tackful...
Personally, I make a conscious effort not to offend anyone.
I treat people the way I'd like to be treated which means fairly.
As a whole, we have to consider though that anything that is written or said in person is open to scrutiny. One just has to learn to take anything lightly. There are also exceptions to this such as those who write because the person is actually angry about someone or something and writing it down is their way of venting it out to get back at their offender.
In some cases, how someone treats another may be different behind a screen in comparison to how they will actually treat or deal with each other in person.
We also have to consider the person you are addressing which is sort of touched on by comment that being offended by something or someone can increase our understanding of how it feels to verbally hurt someone else and why we react to it.
Furthermore, some people can take certain jokes that aren't mean to be offensive better than others. Whilst others may find something offensive more than others perhaps due to the nature of the individual. S/he could be more touchy and hypersensitive. We've to learn to gauge what each person can handle or cannot handle. To be safe, it's better treating each person fairly the same way.
If by nature one is more touchy then one must learn to adapt to react in a calm manner to someone who will be intentionally rude and offensive. We can't go around thinking everyone is going to be nice in return despite how good you treat them. Like what Ms. Lady E said, some are just tactless by nature and couldn't care who gets hurts in the process.
When you're often the victim of offensive remarks, one has to grow a backbone. Otherwise one will find that s/he's often crying over spilled milk. However, I do realize most of us we'll get hurt by offensive remarks because we're in touch with our human emotions.
I treat people the way I'd like to be treated which means fairly.
As a whole, we have to consider though that anything that is written or said in person is open to scrutiny. One just has to learn to take anything lightly. There are also exceptions to this such as those who write because the person is actually angry about someone or something and writing it down is their way of venting it out to get back at their offender.
In some cases, how someone treats another may be different behind a screen in comparison to how they will actually treat or deal with each other in person.
We also have to consider the person you are addressing which is sort of touched on by comment that being offended by something or someone can increase our understanding of how it feels to verbally hurt someone else and why we react to it.
Furthermore, some people can take certain jokes that aren't mean to be offensive better than others. Whilst others may find something offensive more than others perhaps due to the nature of the individual. S/he could be more touchy and hypersensitive. We've to learn to gauge what each person can handle or cannot handle. To be safe, it's better treating each person fairly the same way.
If by nature one is more touchy then one must learn to adapt to react in a calm manner to someone who will be intentionally rude and offensive. We can't go around thinking everyone is going to be nice in return despite how good you treat them. Like what Ms. Lady E said, some are just tactless by nature and couldn't care who gets hurts in the process.
When you're often the victim of offensive remarks, one has to grow a backbone. Otherwise one will find that s/he's often crying over spilled milk. However, I do realize most of us we'll get hurt by offensive remarks because we're in touch with our human emotions.
jelousy or possessiveness
how do you categorize your feelings?
is it jealousy or possessiveness?
do you often feel pain over simple things or towards a person?
say you are not, for you said so
say you do,but you still deny it.
how will you explain the snobbish behavior?
maybe you just wanted to simply protect your emotions.
emotions that was hurt unintentionally.
emotions that is yearning.
whatever word you wanted to fit into it,
its yours to ponder whether you negate or admit, so be it.
is it jealousy or possessiveness?
do you often feel pain over simple things or towards a person?
say you are not, for you said so
say you do,but you still deny it.
how will you explain the snobbish behavior?
maybe you just wanted to simply protect your emotions.
emotions that was hurt unintentionally.
emotions that is yearning.
whatever word you wanted to fit into it,
its yours to ponder whether you negate or admit, so be it.
4/21/10
people are always people
Individuals we are, many were just seemed to be like a star. People are everywhere as we could see; YOU, THEM, SHE, HE, US, and ME are totally different from each other.
Others would see someone as to be different for they have their own opinion to say. Like the famous quote which is a TV commercial line “First impression lasts…” isn’t it true? or just a mere superficial!
How about this quote, “Don’t judge a book by it’s cover…” Does it coincide with the first one? These simple words can be express by your own understanding, yet some would just conclude their own at the first glance.
It’s frustrating to know that only a few can stand by its own way. People would just look at you according to what they see and hear. But basically, its their opinion if they see you as arrogant or a hypocrite in the first time. So be it in their minds! For they see also themselves as that!!!
It sound so ridiculous but it’s really true. Most of them are in so called “HIGHEST FORM OF PERSONALITY BUT AN EMPTY SHELL” or should say IDIOTS!!!
Don’t be a victim with these kind of people for they would just make you down… in other words DON’T JUST TRUST SOMEONE…
*Find yourself a time to be free.
*Understanding to others’ opinion is one way of learning.
*Count your fingers NOT your friends.
*Kindness is one of the best tool to be loved by everbody.
*You are the only YOU in this world so live for the best.
*Organize your thought and focus on what you are doing.
*Unite with God on your own special way.
*Cherish every moment with family and friends.
*Help others as long as you can.
*Everybody has the right to be themselves.
*Share what you have, not just to be selfish.
*Thank someone who did something good to you!
*Encourage yourself to be you, not to be arrogant.
*Respect others, if you wanted to be respected.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Others would see someone as to be different for they have their own opinion to say. Like the famous quote which is a TV commercial line “First impression lasts…” isn’t it true? or just a mere superficial!
How about this quote, “Don’t judge a book by it’s cover…” Does it coincide with the first one? These simple words can be express by your own understanding, yet some would just conclude their own at the first glance.
It’s frustrating to know that only a few can stand by its own way. People would just look at you according to what they see and hear. But basically, its their opinion if they see you as arrogant or a hypocrite in the first time. So be it in their minds! For they see also themselves as that!!!
It sound so ridiculous but it’s really true. Most of them are in so called “HIGHEST FORM OF PERSONALITY BUT AN EMPTY SHELL” or should say IDIOTS!!!
Don’t be a victim with these kind of people for they would just make you down… in other words DON’T JUST TRUST SOMEONE…
*Find yourself a time to be free.
*Understanding to others’ opinion is one way of learning.
*Count your fingers NOT your friends.
*Kindness is one of the best tool to be loved by everbody.
*You are the only YOU in this world so live for the best.
*Organize your thought and focus on what you are doing.
*Unite with God on your own special way.
*Cherish every moment with family and friends.
*Help others as long as you can.
*Everybody has the right to be themselves.
*Share what you have, not just to be selfish.
*Thank someone who did something good to you!
*Encourage yourself to be you, not to be arrogant.
*Respect others, if you wanted to be respected.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4/19/10
note for offensive people
We really try to be careful as much as we can to utter words
but sometimes we just cant do something when anyone wants to be offended.
So anything can be offensive to anyone when they get moved
or offended or if they are extremely sensitive for some reasons
like lurking in self-pity without analyzing everything first before making reactions.
Sometimes they need to be offended too to remind
or halt them that they have also offended some people.
Just when i wrote my blog,the torn between two lovers?
i never hesitated to write it in my own way of writing like just a cellphone,
but other people criticized,knowing that they could offend you.
i accept criticism,but way they criticize my way of writing is really rude.
and its hitting me below the belt,and just she said (katuwaan lng)
Very nice of them...these kind of people maybe they think they are good enough
or smarter than others,so they are happy to offend other people..
gudluck to them..
In some way, getting offended could be healthy so we will know the feeling that's telling us not offend people.
but sometimes we just cant do something when anyone wants to be offended.
So anything can be offensive to anyone when they get moved
or offended or if they are extremely sensitive for some reasons
like lurking in self-pity without analyzing everything first before making reactions.
Sometimes they need to be offended too to remind
or halt them that they have also offended some people.
Just when i wrote my blog,the torn between two lovers?
i never hesitated to write it in my own way of writing like just a cellphone,
but other people criticized,knowing that they could offend you.
i accept criticism,but way they criticize my way of writing is really rude.
and its hitting me below the belt,and just she said (katuwaan lng)
Very nice of them...these kind of people maybe they think they are good enough
or smarter than others,so they are happy to offend other people..
gudluck to them..
In some way, getting offended could be healthy so we will know the feeling that's telling us not offend people.
no offense for being offensive
Are you by nature rude?
or your emotions are just easily irritated?
or you feel power when you voice out those nasty words?
Yes, we have our own reasons for being rude but do we have the power to control it?
or we just don't mind at all?
Being offensive is a no persona wherein unintentionally many people are hurt, be it be your friends, relatives or simply acquaintances.
Not only them but our own credibility is degraded as well.
as much as we thirst for approval we dread condemnation".
Furthermore,when dealing with people let us remember we are not just dealing with creatures of logic.
We are dealing with creatures of emotion, creatures bursting with prejudice and motivated by pride and vanity."
We might have our own reasons or excuses for being offensive but its worth a try to be mellow and careful whatever state of mind we are in.
Life is complicated enough for us to add up to its overflowing burdens.
or your emotions are just easily irritated?
or you feel power when you voice out those nasty words?
Yes, we have our own reasons for being rude but do we have the power to control it?
or we just don't mind at all?
Being offensive is a no persona wherein unintentionally many people are hurt, be it be your friends, relatives or simply acquaintances.
Not only them but our own credibility is degraded as well.
as much as we thirst for approval we dread condemnation".
Furthermore,when dealing with people let us remember we are not just dealing with creatures of logic.
We are dealing with creatures of emotion, creatures bursting with prejudice and motivated by pride and vanity."
We might have our own reasons or excuses for being offensive but its worth a try to be mellow and careful whatever state of mind we are in.
Life is complicated enough for us to add up to its overflowing burdens.
own mind...own reasons...own justification...'futile'
Futility of Criticism" Take, for example , the famous quarrel between Theodore Roosevelt and President Taft - a quarrel that split the republican Party, put Woodrow Wilson in the White House, and wrote bold, luminous lines across the First World War and altered the flow of history. When Roosevelt stepped out of the White house in 1908, he supported Taft , who was elected President. Then Roosevelt went off to Africa to shoot lions. When he returned he exploded. He denounced Taft for his conservatism, tried to secure the nomination for a third term himself, formed the Bull Moose party, and all but demolished the G.O.P. In the election that followed , William Howard Taft and the Republican party carried only two - states- Vermont and Utah. The most disastrous defeat the party ever known.
Roosevelt blamed Taft, but did President Taft blame himself? Of course not, With tears in his eyes, Taft said: 'I don't see how i could have done any differently from what i have."
Who was to blame? Roosevelt or Taft? Frankly, i don't know and i don't care. The point I am trying to make is that all of Roosevelt's criticism didn't persuade Taft that he was wrong. It merely made Taft strive to justify himself and to reiterate with tears in his eyes: " I don't see how I could have done any differently from what i have'. (-Dale Carnegie-)
Election time in the Philippines is near, every candidate have their own platforms which they believe in . Majority of us don't personally know them and what they are or will be capable of doing. It's always the game of trial and error ,selecting the less evil or just name game. Whoever we wanted to rule , lets go out and exercise our right of suffrage. BUT whoever reigns no no for criticism for it is futile.
dilemma
After all the things happened,
grieving,stayed in the dark side of my life
Some people pulling u down.
criticizing your imperfection.
knowing that they could hurt you
sometimes i became numb because of the thing happened to me..
the deep pain i feel,kills me.
i'm getting tired of my life,because always same things happened
in my mind want to give up
my friends keep on telling me,"
go out and see the light
don't waste your life for nothing
there's always a reason for everything..
grieving,stayed in the dark side of my life
Some people pulling u down.
criticizing your imperfection.
knowing that they could hurt you
sometimes i became numb because of the thing happened to me..
the deep pain i feel,kills me.
i'm getting tired of my life,because always same things happened
in my mind want to give up
my friends keep on telling me,"
go out and see the light
don't waste your life for nothing
there's always a reason for everything..
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