How is it that I love you... but I don’t?
How come that I can stay away, but not wander off very far from you?
How is it that you hold such a big space in my life, but not hold a place in my world?
How is it that I wanna make you smile, yet does not wish to be the reason behind it?
How come that I want to make you happy, but not hold your happiness?
How is it that I feel such deep tenderness, but not the romance and passion?
How come that I wanna shower your face with kisses, yet still feel the same when the time comes that you will hold another woman’s hand?
How is it that I can say I love you, yet no feel no pain should you say you love another?
And how come that I can give you my heart yet know that it does not belong to you?
...Just why is that I truly love you... but not be in love with you...
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Vindictive love
When one experiences hurt, sometimes s/he has no ability to cope with it. There is a tendency to be spiteful, to take revenge, to purposely hurt back, to be resentful. But the sad part of it is that the desire to avenge from that painful experience is to hurt the "innocent", someone who is not directly involved with whatever ill feelings one is experiencing. In short, someone's got to be punished, somehow.. Is this fair?...Who cares? Someone's got to pay! No matter how much it'll cost that person...
I've heard tons of stories of women (mostly) who were wooed by men, and once they're swept off their feet in "love", the same men just "leave", with lots of alibis or without notice...Can you relate to this?
I've been enveloped with the fear of experiencing the same, so much so that I created a "wall" to protect myself from this misfortune. I was pretty close to ending up with it a couple of times in different situations (or so, I thought). But it is said that the walls we build around us to protect us from being sad and hurt, are the same walls that prevent us from experiencing the joys..And I guess, that is also true..
I was advised many times NOT to be too analytical. " Feelings are not supposed to be logical. Dangerous is the wo/man who keeps rationalizing his/her emotions. "
It is said that " All Is Fair In Love and War "...Let's not be vindictive..
I've heard tons of stories of women (mostly) who were wooed by men, and once they're swept off their feet in "love", the same men just "leave", with lots of alibis or without notice...Can you relate to this?
I've been enveloped with the fear of experiencing the same, so much so that I created a "wall" to protect myself from this misfortune. I was pretty close to ending up with it a couple of times in different situations (or so, I thought). But it is said that the walls we build around us to protect us from being sad and hurt, are the same walls that prevent us from experiencing the joys..And I guess, that is also true..
I was advised many times NOT to be too analytical. " Feelings are not supposed to be logical. Dangerous is the wo/man who keeps rationalizing his/her emotions. "
It is said that " All Is Fair In Love and War "...Let's not be vindictive..
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