Ooooh I remember how I worked myself into a tizzy once I realized I had fallen in love... and didn't know if it was okay to express that. I knew 5 months in that he owned my heart... he had been gaining it all along... at 3 months I felt so much for him but it grew and grew.
I didn't want to say it and scare him with the burden of it ... if he himself did not feel it, but I just longed to say the words. I wanted to tell him I loved him not because I wanted to hear it back (though that would be awesome was my line of thinking at the time lol), I just needed to say it.
I hemmed and hawed and then had the talk asking him how he felt about me and he said everything and anything except for that he loved me, so I didn't feel right to say it. But the weight was heavy on me and I realized... if he doesn't feel what I feel... what am I doing. I pulled back a bit and within the same week of that convey he said it. He held me tight and he said it... before I did -- and it was one of the best moments of my life.
You can't put a time table on saying I love you... the question is ... do you love him. If you do the next question is how important is it to you that he know this.
Saying it, puts your heart on the line and its scary, so scary...but if you say it when you feel it in your heart, when its about to burst because you have to let them know... then you say it. And if they are like me -- and were waiting on those very words -- its magic.
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